Longing for a life that was simple...when others made decisions for me.
A time of gratitude for the simple things.....like "I love you this much" 
Or the smell of a "just bathed" child...fresh out of the tub. Like soap and shampoo and lotion. I love to bury my face in their hair and smell that wonderful smell.
....watching Grandgirls dress up like a princess or a ballerina and laughing and having a good time....
they grow up way to fast...
....longing for the time when I could look in the mirror
and recognize the person looking back at me.
Passages....they happen to all of us.
This sounds like a pity party...it is not..just let me be sad for a day.
Memories are the things that make it worth living....
and making them is what gets you up in the morning.
By the way, I got my eyes tattooed this weekend...you know permanent eye liner.....cause my hand isn't as steady now and I don't want to be bothered. Right now I kind of look like a Grandma ho..[If you know what I mean]
I hope it fades a little.....
But then when I look at myself, I don't see me anyway,
I see that gray haired grandma.
I am kind of getting used to her...she looks like my mom...
...and I long for her too.
6 comments:
I love this post and I love you Mom. You can smell my hair anytime.
It's okay to be sad. I think about all my memories and long for things too. But "grandma ho?" You are so funny. I bet you are still as beautiful as always.
Colleena - you remind me too much of my mother. Both beautiful on the inside out - but hate getting older. I'm sure even with your makeup you still look fantastic.
More like Grandma ho ho ho is all I'm saying. Oh and you can smell my head anytime too (you'll have to come visit me though).
Cute post mom. I LOVE your gray hair. I'm having a hard time with chubby cheeks so I guess we're both a little self conscious right now.
Such cute memories in those photos, Colleena! And you're still making lots of new memories...it only gets better.
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